eternally thankful

this is the fifth anniversary of the best and worst day of my life...this is the day i stood in my living room with tears streaming down my face and begged my husband not to leave...this is also the day that made me step back and take a good, long look at myself in the mirror and realize my own faults...and this is the day that i decided to make a change for me, for us and for our family...

one evening, not long after he left, i drove my car back a dirt road...followed the road to the top and pulled in to the perfect spot, nestled among trees and open fields...it was a gorgeous, clear night and the sky was filled with stars...i sat there that evening and cried for hours while talking to God like he was sitting in my car with me...that evening the seed of forgiveness was planted in my heart...

i realized my relationship with Jesus had taken a backseat to life, along with my marriage...actually, Jesus wasn't even in the backseat, he was in the trunk...i did not have time for Jesus to trip me up when i was busy living the ways of the world...once i realized that, asked for forgiveness and started to nuture my relationship with Jesus THAT'S when things started to change, when i started to change...

there was never a doubt that i wanted to stand for my marriage, regardless of what the world told me to do...i knew that standing was what God wanted me to do and i never let the thought of divorce even enter my mind...i prayed, trusted God and knew His will would be done...i basically handed my marriage to Him and waited for things to be done in His timing, not mine...i was waiting for His intervention...

i am so thankful that our love story didn't end there, that it did indeed have more chapters to it...the reward of restoration was well worth the wait...and i am eternally thankful that our love was rescued by God 

Joshua 1:9

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.

out for now
~kisses