two women who didn't know each other made a decision that would forever change their lives and the life of a sweet baby girl...they both had such a selfless heart, one making the ultimate sacrific and the other opening her home and her heart...i am so thankful for the hand God had in all of our lives...
it makes my mama heart ache when i think of my birth-mother handing me over to sally, watching her walk out of the hospital and get into a car and drive away...knowing that there was a possibility she would never see me again...the strength and selflessness it took to make that decision at such a young age still amazes me...
it makes my mama heart jump with joy when i think of my adoptive mother waiting for her precious new bundle to be delivered to her...how she must have felt so over-the-moon but still felt a little ache in her heart knowing someone else gave up their baby so she could experience motherhood...
so today, as i turn another year older, i am reflecting back on the absolutely wonderful life i've had...my adoption was such an amazingly beautiful thing...i am so blessed to have never once felt an ounce of resentment or anger, to have somehow understood from an early age that it was just "right" and never questioned it, to never have felt "different" but instead felt "lucky" that i had TWO sets of parents when most kids only had ONE and most of all to have an adoptive mother and father that absolutely supported me 100% in finding my birth parents and understanding why i needed that to feel whole...my mother told me that she never felt threatened by it because she KNEW i had enough love in my heart to love all of them...she is truly an amazing woman...
it's a perfect example to me of how God has his hands in our lives, even when we don't realize it...how thankful i am for that!!!
out for now
~kisses
