my journey...

boy oh boy, 2012 was a ridiculously hard year; physically, emotionally and mentally.  my weight loss journey got pushed to the side for the majority of the year.  not only did i have physical limitations but i guess i had some mental ones as well.  there were times i wanted to just throw in the towel and give up on my journey (and on so so many days i did).  i had a surgery with unforeseen complications followed up by 5 smaller surgeries and one big whooper.  that basically dominated my entire year, from march until december.  so many days, with my weight loss, it left me feeling defeated, broken and like a failure.  i felt like i not only let myself down but also those people that always told me i had inspired them.  i was embarrassed and many days didn't want to leave the house and have others see me.  and honestly, i was angry.  i was so angry at myself.  

BUT...

i refuse to let circumstances defeat me and i will NOT be broken.  this girl right here, she's a strong one.  and with God by my side i can do ANYTHING.  i am determined, now more than ever, to get this journey rolling again.  

i know what doesn't kill us makes us stronger...and all 2012 did was strengthen me up to show 2013 who is boss...so, on the last day of this month we will be starting the monthly weight loss posts again documenting my journey (complete with pics)...

out for now
~kisses

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