2013 was a ridiculously hard year for me; physically, emotionally and mentally. My weight loss journey got pushed aside for the majority of the year. Not only did I have physical limitations but I guess I had some mental ones as well. There were times I wanted to just throw in the towel and give up on my journey (and on so so many days I did). I had surgery in February to remove my kidney, which kinda set me back a bit physically. So many days, with my weight loss, it left me feeling defeated, broken and like a failure. I felt like I not only let myself down but also those people that always told me I had inspired them. I was embarrassed and many days didn't want to leave the house and have others see me. And honestly, I was angry. I was so angry at myself.
I absolutely refuse to let circumstances defeat me and I will NOT be broken. This girl right here, she's a strong one. And with God by my side I can do ANYTHING. I am determined, now more than ever, to get this journey rolling again.
One thing I won't be doing is my monthly weight loss posts anymore, at least not for now. That puts way too much pressure on me for some reason. But once I get this thing going, I'll be SURE to post again.
So, for now, I would super love if you could pray for me and my journey please. I'm trying to figure out where it all fits in. God spoke to my heart and gave me 3 direct things to do. And I'll be working on those as He transforms me. God is good, always. And I know, as with everything else, He will gave me the strength to do this.
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