David, “a man after God’s own heart”, was lonely. In Psalm 25:16 he said to the Lord, “Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted.” David was lonely! Wow, so a man after God's own heart, a man who clearly wasn't afraid of anything, was lonely and felt isolated.
I'm not sure exactly what my soul is craving, but God knows. And in that gap between my longing and Him fulfilling the fellowship I desire, I'm choosing to trust His timing. It might possibly be the hardest thing I've done y'all.
At that exact moment I did the only thing my heart would, I went directly to sit at my Fathers feet.
Through my tears, I heard a still-small voice saying Fellowship with me, give me your heart and your troubles. I will never abandon you even when others do.
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
I'm going to be honest, It’s tough to hope and trust in God when life looks bleak.
I know the devil uses our emptiness against us. And the words that so easily left my mouth are a perfect example of that. It's so easy to feel self pity, self-centeredness, bitterness, anger and jealousy. And it's so easy to put a band aid on the pain. I am reminded now more than ever that I need to find my comfort through God and trust Him and His timing.
As I write this post through tears, many tears, my heart is calm knowing I'm allowing Him to fill the gap. I'm choosing to trust in Him, delight in His timing and allow Him to fill the hole inside of me.